A Letter for You - Ian Chong ♥

Hey there, stranger.

It’s been a very long time, which I’m sure you’re aware of. I’d like to say that it was your decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the best. I’d like to say that I’m glad you are well, but as we both know I have absolutely no idea how you are.

The one thing that can definitely be said is that when we cut ties, we leave no strand behind, but slice right through until we no longer remember how to find each other. It’s amazing to think that once we were inseparable, the best of friends.

You knew me inside and out, and I, you. We were there for each other in the best of times and through the most difficult of times. We definitely managed to put each other through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most, support was given. Until, of course, that final day.

I sometimes find myself wondering why we couldn’t stay in touch. Would it be so bad if we got together for coffee from time to time? Or if we gave each other a ring to see how the other was doing?

Using the phone to make calls has become archaic, but surely we could send a text to wish each other a happy birthday? Or a happy New Year? I mean, we’ve been through so much. You are a part of my life and there is nothing I can do to ever change that.

You can’t be forgotten because forgetting you would be like forgetting myself — impossible. But then again, maybe you are right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible.

We know we aren’t right for each other. We know it would never work, and we know the friendship we have — we had — created a bond that would make slipping back into romance too easy.

It would make repeating the same mistakes too likely, repeating the same heartbreak certain. That’s what it really comes down to: It’s not my heart that I’m worried about, but yours. Breaking my own heart would be my responsibility to bear, but I can’t once again be responsible for breaking yours.

So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great, bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your dreams and to create a lifetime of your fantasies.

I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. One who won’t drag you through the mud. One who you won’t feel the need to bury with guilt.

I wish you all the best and although you will never read this, although we will never speak to each other again, and although you are out of my life forever, I wish you nothing short of happiness.

Never again to be yours,

Your Lost Best Friend

還是會想你♥

我會試著微笑
不應該在想你
 畢竟全都會過去

下過雨的長街
屋簷下的小世界
你的樣子慢慢不見

我會學著安靜
不再相信奇跡
除非真的有奇跡

你微笑的神態
是不落幕的電影
只有眼淚跟著回憶

捨不得
說忘記卻還會想你
不捨得
快樂怎麼會不快樂

好深刻 就因為愛你太曲折
我們才抱頭痛哭天空都灰了

捨不得
說忘記還是會想你
不捨得
不快樂怎麼會快樂

下雨了 有沒有人為你撐著
雨後孤單才是最想你的片刻
誰會懂呢

祝你幸福快樂

時間滴滴答答溜走了
我努力地想往後倒退
卻發現我一直在原地踏步

前方是一片茫然
夢想時近時遠的
沒有人在前方牽引著我

我只能裝著堅強
帶著沈重的腳步
一步一步的往前邁進

這個吃力不討好地旅途
始終還是一個人
得走下去

我努力地尋找
一個像你懂我的人
一個讓我覺得有愛的人

尋尋覓覓
這遊戲不簡單
況且在這圈子

有時還真的需要一個懂我的人
抱著我說：
「我知道你沒有過的很好」

就足夠了
這一句勝過千言萬語

你幸福了
我也笑著祝福你
至少你讓我知道還有比我還要愛你的人在愛著你

我呢
等著下一站幸福...

祝我生日快樂 2014 ♥

6.28
祝我生日快樂

傻傻的我
期待著重演去年偶遇的橋段

偷偷去看了你的照片
期待你的祝福

不管如何
今年也許了同樣的願望

希望我們可以又在一起慶祝屬於我們的日子

致我的月亮...

THE END ♥

有人對我說
你已變成我回憶的一部分了
就只能把你放在心裡某個深處

事情過了那麼久了
我依然傻傻的抱著一個希望
希望你會回到我身邊

也許是不捨得吧
無論怎樣告訴自己要放下
到最後還是不停的想你

我答應你
不再煩你
不再聯絡你
我實現了諾言

我不看你的境況
我不問你的事情
就只是默默的想念你

怕自己找回你
煩你
傷害你

最近過得好嗎？
希望你是幸福的
找到一個你愛的和愛你的人
永遠在一起
不再讓你受傷害

你要好好生活..
這也是我最後一篇想對你說的話

我不再依賴這裡對你說話了
我不希望這變成一個對你思念的習慣

謝謝你留下了很多美好的回憶
偶爾想起讓我覺得特別窩心

希望這一個博客永遠不會消失
永遠的留在你我的心裡

我愛你

THE END.. 14.02.2012 - 09.02.2013

如果有如果 II ♥

這世界 如果有如果
如果一切重頭 如果你再說你愛我
習慣了 熟悉的溫柔
turn around turn around turn around
怎麼還是 一個我

雨滴滴答答的墜落 還有什麼說不出口
淚不停不停的滑落 習慣沒有你的角落

I want to sing a song for you
sing for my soul
沒有你的天空 沒有雲朵
you are my everything and I really love you
在淚乾了以後 想聽你說 愛我

想太多 如果有如果
如果永遠愛我 如果最後能到最後
一個人 該習慣什麼
turn around turn around turn around
習慣晚安自己說

雨滴滴答答的墜落 還有什麼說不出口
淚不停不停的滑落 習慣沒有你的角落

I want to sing a song for you
sing for my soul
沒有你的天空 沒有雲朵
you are my everything and I really love you
在淚乾了以後 卻還記得

還記得青蘋的酸甜 酸到心底沒有感覺
夢太美 回憶太心碎 再多給我一點點的勇氣

I want to sing a song for you
sing for my soul
沒有你的天空 沒有雲朵
you are my everything and I really love you
在淚乾了以後 想聽你說 love you

活该 ♥

对
这世界没有“如果有如果"

它只是一个
让希望慢慢变成绝望的缓冲地带..

是的
我只不过是
一个无聊的人
一个多余的人
一个活该的人

等待着
幻想着
那莫须的奇迹

是的
是我天真
相信始终有一天你还会接受我

拥有的时候
不曾珍惜
到失去以后
才来后悔

我不是一个完美情人
至少我的心依然是属于你的

看了你的照片
才知道
我伤了你很深很深

我不曾知道你想在的想法
或许你真的希望
我永远都不要踏入你的世界里

我很挣扎
我很想你
那又怎样？？

你已不再回头了..........................